Dear Diary,

“When you get to rehearsal an hour early, you post on social media!”

That's not really me. I mean, the picture is, but the posting because I have extra time isn't. I took the photo with the intention of posting it, but then I didn't. Instead, I took the time to reflect. 

I mostly wrote this a few months ago, but I haven't felt comfortable sharing it until now.

I haven't been truly authentic with many people in person, but especially online. I play small because I'm afraid, and I pretend like I…